Troublesome Points

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Another year has come and gone, and what an eventful one it has been.

My year in review could get lengthy, but here’s the semi- short version.

January-May; I worked at Polkadots until they closed in May. I was the Assistant Director, and I hated getting out of bed in the morning for that place. I wanted something more, a career, but had yet to make a decision about going to school. I was 285 LBs of pure disgusting obesity before I started a diet/exercise regimen in February or march. My sister was a hypertension mess during her pregnancy, and every other phones call was hospital scare or test results. Her amazing shower was in May. What an amazing outpouring of generosity that day was. My husband and I went to Tennessee in January, which was so beautiful and relaxing. We really enjoyed that place. Polkadots went out of business at the end of May. This was such a blessing, I’ll never be able to put it into words.

June – My nephew was born 2 months early, on June 2nd. He was 3 lbs. and a few oz., and he was an instant heartbreaker. He’ll be 7 months in January, and he has Aunt Kitty wrapped around his fat little finger. He’s a little butterball now, a little butterball who I would do anything for. His first Christmas was amazing, also.
July-September; Nothing really sticks out at me about these months except my extreme diet/exercise regimen. I also made the decision to go to school to become a correctional officer. I began the application process, submitted it, and got into the program. My nephew got out of the hospital in July I believe, after spending 4 weeks in. That was a joyous day.

October – I started the academy. I also became the class Secretary. One step closer to a career.
November – I packed my things, and left my husband. Probably one of the largest decisions I’ve ever made, and who knows if it was the right one. Only time will tell. I trust in God to guide me, and that he knows what’s right for my life.

December – At the end of this year, it’s with a big sigh and mixed emotions that I bid 2011 adieu. It certainly was an eventful year, but I really can’t say it was bad. I’ve lost 110 pounds, and I feel amazing. I still need to get off my butt and ditch these last thirty, but when you’ve gone from a size 22 to a 9, the last 30 doesn’t seem like much. I’ve been doing very well in the academy. I’ve got a 3.5 GPA, and I don’t fall out when we run anymore, even though I despise running still. I have my ducks in a row to be able to walk into a position at an agency when I finish school, thanks to two instructors letting me impress them. I have to say, getting pulled aside, and having the conversations I had with each of them was pretty amazing.
Any resolutions for 2012? Yeah, those last 30 lbs. need to take a hike. I want to be amazing in my new career, I want to re-enroll in school and become dual certified. I just want 2012 to be my year. It will be.

I know, I know!! I’ve been neglecting the blog again. I’m sorry.

Latest news is me leaving my husband, and finding myself as an individual. I’m a full time student/transient at the moment, and I am living up to both of those labels perfectly.

School is going well. I’ve aced all my tests so far, and I intend to keep on pushing through to graduation. Got a good lead from an instructor on a local agency, and he’s setting up a meeting for me, which is fabulous news. I would love to rest assured that I’ll have a job to walk into as soon as I pass the state exam. Please God, keep lining things up for me like this!! I’ve made some good friends at school, a few much closer than others, but all new friends are great.

Other than school enveloping my life right now, and me choosing this new life path personally; nothing is really out of line right now. I’m doing great.

I should have posted this a little earlier than now, considering that today is Halloween; But have you been to EdenFantasys to see their Halloween costumes? They have such a large selection, and any size you need is available on most of the costumes as well. I have two favorites, one is the corrupt cop, probably because I’m currently going through the police academy. It’s cute and fun, and it has good reviews. The other one I like a lot is the trouble at school outfit. It’s reversible, and can be pretty revealing if you want it to be, but it can be a bit more modest if you should choose to go that route. It’s extremely sexy either way. Maybe you could shop now for next year, because today is already Halloween.

Something else I discovered tonight on their site was the fact that the free gifts have changed again. They change them pretty often, and who cares what they are anyway? They’re free with any purchase. Just choose the one that intrigues you and click add to cart! Edenfantasys is a very well organized site, and is definately my ‘go-to girl’ for sex toys. you should check it out, they have something for everyone.

Just a quick post!

I’ve been swamped with school, but am enjoying every second of it. I’ve had 3 tests so far, and have gotten a 90,92, and 85. The last one was pretty nerve wracking, hence the 85!! All the stress is going to be worth it. I’m the Class Secretary, which is awesome, and certainly looks good on paper for jobs!!

Also, I’m down 107 pounds total now, and am in size 9 jeans. So, the weight is coming off slowly now, but the working out is still slimming me down and toning me.

Halloween parties/outings this weekend!! Pictures, so exciting! I’ll be posting them as soon as I get one that’s a good comparison to last year.

No other news, other than the fact that I am not getting enough sleep. Just sayin’.

School is madness!!! It just keeps going and going!! I got a 90 on my Legal 1 exam, and I have my Legal 2 exam tomorrow. Legal 2 is proving to be more difficult for me, but the study group is helping a lot. I appreciate them!!

The guys I’m in class with are just getting funnier and funnier which is cool. I’ve also decided I am going to run for President, with a few words of encouragement from one of my classmates. Vote for Kitty!!

In other news, I’m down like 100 or so pounds now. Yay!! I’m not weighing in and being as crazy about it because I’m happy with my body, and I’m too darn busy with school to get sidetracked with that!

Looking forward to wearing my Halloween costume this year. I’m also looking forward to putting last years picture next to this years picture, just sayin’.

Sorry I’m so vague and intermittent with this lately. When the instructor asked on the first day ‘Who has a family or children?‘, then looked around the room to see who raised their hands, and follwed it up with ‘Kiss them goodbye for the next for months, because this academy owns you.’ I thought wow. Two days later, I realized he was not exaggerating. If I’m not at school, I’m with some one from school working out so I don’t suck at PT for the next 4 months, or studying so I don’t flunk.

This is going to be worth every second of it.

Oh yes, the past can hurt, but the way I see it you can either run from it or learn from it. -Rafiki; The Lion King

Really? The Lion King has got it down before I do!? A Disney movie?! Shame on me for not realizing this before I turned 25.

Learn from it, don’t run from it!! Everything happens for a reason, every pain, spoiled friendship, and horrible moment are serving a purpose in your life. The sooner I, and everyone else remember that, the better off we’ll all be. Just sayin’.

No news here really. I got a 90 on my Legal 1 exam in school today, which was pretty cool. Someone got a 100 though, so I did not receive the highest grade in the class, which is what I wanted. I suppose if I didn’t have so much else on my mind, I might have been more focused. Then again, a 90 is what I was supposed to get, because everything happens for a reason!

Five days of school; Done.

What an intense week it was, specifically with the physical training!! Thank goodness I lost the weight I did, and got into the shape I did, because I wouldn’t have been able to keep up. The guys are machines however, and I mean machines. There is one guy who is 52, and he ran 1.5 miles in 12:33. That’s pretty impressive, to me at least. My time was 21:33… Because I walked the majority of it, because I hate running. Fail.

The guys in my class are awesome. They’re absolutely hilarious, super nice, and really helpful. A few of us formed a study group, and are meeting tomorrow to cram for our legal test. I’m glad I got into a class that’s such a good group, and not one with a bunch of egos. There is one other girl, but if she doesn’t get her funding squared away, she won’t be able to continue, and I’ll be the only girl. That’s okay though, the guys are awesome, like I said.

We started off in off in legal on Tuesday, and it has been a complete data dump. It’s a lot of information to have thrown at you all at once, but I intend to study my brains out, and rock the test on Wednesday.  There was no easing us into it, that’s for sure.

My school supplies were pretty much sufficient. I stick out because they’re colorful and cute, but that’s just me. My colorful and cute lunch box also sticks out as we tail gate at lunchtime in the parking lot. My brightly colored and tight fitting gym clothes also make me stick out, but it’s okay. Just because I’m going into this field does not mean I don’t get to be feminine!! My husband says I look cute in my uniform; I say it stinks, because I worked so hard for my new body, and it’s not exactly show cased in my uniform, as you can see below.

See that? That’s how men’s clothes fit women; Poorly.

I had a blast at school this week, and am thinking I’m going to make some long term friends there. Oh, and I’m also working on obtaining a career I don’t have to be ashamed of, which is pretty awesome too. Just sayin’.

Moving on is simple, what you leave behind that makes it difficult. – Author Unknown

We always thought we’d look back on our tears and laugh, but we never thought we’d look back on our laughter and cry. – Unknown Author

Friendship is like a glass ornament; once it is broken it can rarely be put back together exactly the same way. – Author Unknown

Men kick friendship around like a football but it doesn’t seem to break. Women treat it like glass and it goes to pieces. – Unknown Author

All of the above statements are 100% true and correct, especially  in my life. We’ve all had friends come and go, and each case is unique in its own way. Sometimes there’s a brawl that leads to the end of the friendship, and other times it’s just  a rather silent parting of ways. Sometimes people just drift apart over space and time, and then find out how weak the friendship really was from the beginning. I believe God puts everyone in your life, and removes them as needed, and as he sees fit. We just have to realize that he knows what’s best for us, always. No matter how much the demise of that friendship may hurt, it’s purposeful in your life. you need to experience that for a future event.

I had a friend, who was my best friend, and I was closer to her than my own sister at times; She ripped my heart out, did/said terrible things to/about me, and just basically created the worst experience I’ve ever had. Yes, granted, I look back on it now, and it is nowhere near as terrible as it seemed at the time, and I prevailed through the mess she intentionally created. It’s still a terrible thing that she did that, but I needed to go through it for some reason. I can also say I’m stronger and smarter for it.

My sister and I have had our ups and downs, but I think we’re finally to the point that as adults, and she as a mother now, we’re the closest we’ve ever been. Since we were rolling our blue bouncy ball down the hall when we were kids that is. Those were the days. I thank God for her everyday, and I’m happy to be living out what my Dad wrote in his last letter to me. She is always going to be there for me. He was right. Go figure, as usual. That man was always right, just sayin’.

I had another friend, too. We gave our relationship multiple attempts, and it’s just not meant to be. Sometimes a relationship just isn’t healthy to be in, but is therapeutic to remember and reminisce about. You just have to sit back and think if the good times and happy memories are worth everything else the relationship brings into your life and puts you through. There is a fine line between being a fair weather friend, and being logical enough to realize something is a form of poison. You just have to walk that line, and accept that. Brentwood, I cherish every single memory we made together, and I think about you, and pray for you often. I pray you remember everything I ever said to you, because I meant it. You are destined for greatness, and you will find your way some day.

I have two other friends who are wedding party/delivery room material. I’m certain they’ll be there when my husband and I renew our vows, and when he passes out in the delivery room. (I am not having children, this is just an example).  I can go without seeing or talking to ADS for a year, and one afternoon out by the pool we will be caught up like not a day had gone by without a conversation. ADS also needs to be on my payroll, because she is my therapist. She literally talked me through a difficult conversation I had to have with someone last night. What an awesome friend you are, and I thank God for you every day. Nautica moved away from me, which makes me sad, because as much as she dragged me on random Wal-mart trips, I dragged her  on just as many, and she was always down. I can cry to her about anything, big or small, and she will listen, and quite possibly cry with me. That’s what she does, she’s a sympathy crier, and that’s awesome. Sometimes you need to not just be crying alone. It helps. I thank God for her every day as well.

Written by Regina Brett, 90 years old, of the Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio.

“To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most requested column I’ve ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone.. It’s more healing than crying alone.
8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.

12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.
35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come…
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.”

What wonderful words, and points of view. How true they are!!! This was such a wonderful read, and I can thank my baby lady for this. She posted it on Facebook tonight, and I immediately needed to place it in my blog. I am familiar with the plain Dealer, because I used to live just outside of Cleveland. It was a good little newspaper then, and  obviously  it’s an awesome little newspaper now, with gems like this stashed inside. I think I may frame this, and put it in my office some day. I will have an office. My husband swears I’ll make Sergeant  in no time. I say I’m going to rise to the challenge.

I can think of a few friends who need this right now. Sacajawea, I want you to print this list, and frame it in your home office. I also want you to print another one, and keep it in your purse. Do it, because I will be searching for it when I come up to visit you. I will inflict bodily harm on your double zero waist if I do not find them; Just sayin’.